So what to do after you're done crying? I decided to stain my bathroom doors. But that's besides the point, lol. What I was listening to while staining was audiobook "Seven Things that Steal Your Joy" by Joyce Meyer. I recommend! Listen to minute 14.... "Maybe there is something you want, and are trying hard to get. " <for me a man who loves me> "Yet nothing you try is working, and it is frustrating you. In that case all you can do is back off and wait on God. While you are waiting for God to take care of the situation, I encourage you to enjoy the wait. That may be hard because it take patience."
Hah! Enjoy the wait? LOL. I want to meet my future husband and I want him now!! (I thought my 2nd love would be the one, but I was wrong.) But Joyce is right. I do need to be PATIENT and leave it in God's hands. She must have been reading my mind! It was so creepy when she said this:
"Suppose you feel you can't wait to get married. So you decide to find the perfect mate for yourself instead of waiting on God to work it out for you. It would be a terrible mistake to become so desperate that you settle for someone who is not right for you. It would be much better to wait until God brings you a divine connection."
Awesome advice! I will wait. Someone out there God has planned for me. I may not want to, but I will wait.
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Why Blog?
I just broke up with my boyfriend. Probably why many people start blogging, right? lol. Well, this was the second love of my life. They say first loves never work out, but I was hoping that this one would have. =( I am a 27 year old woman who is ready to settle down. I look at my sister (she's the PRETTY sister of course) who is happily married with 3 kids, and I want that.
I never had a relationship in life, but it was okay because I was busy with school and work. However, after I got my doctorate and a stable job, I was ready to date! My longest relationship prior was 2 weeks, so I was soo happy when I found my <3 first love <3 on eharmony. We dated for 6 months, and I was so happy! Then, I asked if he loved me. He said that he only said the love word to his mom and grandmother. Then he dumped me with no reason, saying "we're just not the perfect match". My mom said it was probably because his high class family did not approve of me (I wasn't pretty and have blond hair/blue eyes like them.) Ahh, see how hard it is to be an UGLY GIRL?
Anyways, this 2nd love of my life I met on match.com and I really thought I could be loved. I enjoyed his company so much! Then yesterday I get a text "I don't want any serious relationship until I find out where I'm going to be next year. You can continue to date me and figure it out later, or you're free to move on." What!? I gave him a break when he was studying for boards, but if I continue like this then my heart will just be more hurt later.
How does that saying go? "He's just not that into you"? Well, i believe it. However, they should extend it to say..."He's just not that into you because YOU'RE AN UGLY GIRL". I'm sure if I was prettier that man would tell me his future plans would work out as long as he was with me. <sigh> So that's my story. Why I am blogging to see the gradual process of finding my future husband. All I am looking for is a good Christian man that will love me. Is that so hard? ........
I never had a relationship in life, but it was okay because I was busy with school and work. However, after I got my doctorate and a stable job, I was ready to date! My longest relationship prior was 2 weeks, so I was soo happy when I found my <3 first love <3 on eharmony. We dated for 6 months, and I was so happy! Then, I asked if he loved me. He said that he only said the love word to his mom and grandmother. Then he dumped me with no reason, saying "we're just not the perfect match". My mom said it was probably because his high class family did not approve of me (I wasn't pretty and have blond hair/blue eyes like them.) Ahh, see how hard it is to be an UGLY GIRL?
Anyways, this 2nd love of my life I met on match.com and I really thought I could be loved. I enjoyed his company so much! Then yesterday I get a text "I don't want any serious relationship until I find out where I'm going to be next year. You can continue to date me and figure it out later, or you're free to move on." What!? I gave him a break when he was studying for boards, but if I continue like this then my heart will just be more hurt later.
How does that saying go? "He's just not that into you"? Well, i believe it. However, they should extend it to say..."He's just not that into you because YOU'RE AN UGLY GIRL". I'm sure if I was prettier that man would tell me his future plans would work out as long as he was with me. <sigh> So that's my story. Why I am blogging to see the gradual process of finding my future husband. All I am looking for is a good Christian man that will love me. Is that so hard? ........
Are you an ugly girl too?
Have you searched for "diary of an ugly girl" on google? I have. I was hoping to find a book I could read about an ugly girl who has a hard time finding love or a self-help book on how to deal with being an ugly girl. Guess what I found? Nothing good. One link I thought was good at first..(it was about an ugly girl who found love with a paraplegic)..but it turned out to be a porno story. So I don't recommend you read that! lol Instead, ReAd My BlOg! =) I am an ugly girl who is looking for love and have not found it. There will be trials and tribulations in my quest to find a handsome man who will love me, and I would like to share it. It would be nice to get feedback from other ugly girls too! So read, enjoy, and have hope because you are not alone!!!!
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