I just broke up with my boyfriend. Probably why many people start blogging, right? lol. Well, this was the second love of my life. They say first loves never work out, but I was hoping that this one would have. =( I am a 27 year old woman who is ready to settle down. I look at my sister (she's the PRETTY sister of course) who is happily married with 3 kids, and I want that.
I never had a relationship in life, but it was okay because I was busy with school and work. However, after I got my doctorate and a stable job, I was ready to date! My longest relationship prior was 2 weeks, so I was soo happy when I found my <3 first love <3 on eharmony. We dated for 6 months, and I was so happy! Then, I asked if he loved me. He said that he only said the love word to his mom and grandmother. Then he dumped me with no reason, saying "we're just not the perfect match". My mom said it was probably because his high class family did not approve of me (I wasn't pretty and have blond hair/blue eyes like them.) Ahh, see how hard it is to be an UGLY GIRL?
Anyways, this 2nd love of my life I met on match.com and I really thought I could be loved. I enjoyed his company so much! Then yesterday I get a text "I don't want any serious relationship until I find out where I'm going to be next year. You can continue to date me and figure it out later, or you're free to move on." What!? I gave him a break when he was studying for boards, but if I continue like this then my heart will just be more hurt later.
How does that saying go? "He's just not that into you"? Well, i believe it. However, they should extend it to say..."He's just not that into you because YOU'RE AN UGLY GIRL". I'm sure if I was prettier that man would tell me his future plans would work out as long as he was with me. <sigh> So that's my story. Why I am blogging to see the gradual process of finding my future husband. All I am looking for is a good Christian man that will love me. Is that so hard? ........
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